Monday, April 19, 2010

my life is getting back on track.

i'm up to 2 miles, 5 days a week.
i'm boyless, and therefore more mentally sane.
i'm feeling more confident about the way i look.

i still have a lot of anxiety, but i'm getting used to it.
i don't notice my twitches or anything anymore.

it's hard to not feel lonely when i'm so distant from friends from high school.
my classes are only 11 weeks long... who can establish an actual friendship that will last outside of the classroom, in 11 weeks?

i'm trying to stay close and get closer with my family.
they're the only people that i don't think will be leaving my life any time soon.

i can honestly say that i will not allow another boy into my life that i have doubts about.
after every failed relationship, i get stronger in a way.
i know the signs of a bad guy,
and i'm paying close detail to every one of them.
i'm going to be single for awhile. even if i meet someone i like,
he'll have to like me enough to wait for me to be ready.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

i've turned into an insomniac.

Friday, April 9, 2010

social anxiety.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

i'm dating this boy.
things were rocky,
but now i'm reassured.

"i'll text you in the morning. they'll probably be super cute texts."

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

tired of the paranoia.
how does a gal face this alone?

Saturday, April 3, 2010

all of these awful boys are invading my life in the same 2 days.
seriously, 3 boys in one weekend.
i have too many decisions to make,
and i dont know how to make them.

I NEED TO STOP DOING STUPID SHIT.