it's all over.

i texted him, asking if we could talk after work.

i told him that we couldn't hang out anymore.

at first, he seemed mad... he said "at all? why not?"

i told him that i needed to get over him,

and i couldn't do that unless i didnt talk to him anymore.

he told me that he was sorry for always treating me badly.

he said the reason that he always treated me badly was because he wanted to push himself away from me, so he wouldn't develop deeper emotions.

he told me that he cared about me,

and that he wants me to call him if i have problems i need to talk about.

he asked for one last hug,

which lasted well over a couple minutes.

i cried and cried and cried,

and i saw some tears that he was trying to hide, too.

that closure was what i needed.

these past 4 days of just ignoring him have been hell.

i was so paranoid with all of the thoughts built up in my head of what could happen and how he would react... i didn't even think about how many things would end nicely, because they were meant to end nicely...

this ending is opening up so many doors to new beginnings..

new beginnings that will begin the life that is planned for me.